22th June 2007,
7.00pm Thursday. Am in the hospital, yup yup..I know it's late, but am not going home after this. Gonna be attending a talk on 'L-Dopa induced Motor Complication", at E&O Hotel, so staying back, gonna be going after this blog. Life is routine, I always said that. Nothing much to update nowadays, probably I just not good in expressing my thoughts in words.
Life is good, and should be greater each day. A positive note for the beginning. We had our Department Meeting yesterday, and Magdalene has announced to the staff that she is leaving. People were guessing the reasons behind it, some said, maybe she got better offer, a better prospect, another jokingly said, "Is she gonna get married?". Mag was bombarded with a lot of questions: 'Why are you leaving?". And she answered, oh, am starting anew, to relocate to Perlis to start a mission work. Jaw dropped! Everyone just couldn't believe it. Why? Why she do that? Leaving everything behind to go for mission? Oh! Some arguements, won't say arguement, maybe discussion going round about the same topic. She must be crazy, why make such unwise decision? She can just take a few months off, and try out before giving up the job and 'burn the bridge'?? Why?
Magdalene's resignation made me think a lot. What about me? Will I leave everything? Answering the calls. What is God's calling for me? Do I have such faith to leave? Or maybe venturing into some other opportunities? Hmm...will I able to be bold to explore other opportunitues or, am I closed myself and settle for what I have now? Hmm..I start to put on my thinking cap. I've been here for 4 years huh? Right from my internship, this considered as my 1st job. So when I gonna relocate? I've shared this to my staff, Choong. She said- No need, here is good enough for a gal- stable and safe position. Will I ever make my first move to relocate? Yeah, when the times right, if I have a better offer, I don't mind. Or, *grinning* if I ever get married out from Penang, I really don't mind. I am not really a career women, really! Never thought of climbing corporate ladder, or even be a Head of Pharmacy. My ambition is to be a 'wife' and a good 'mother'. Ohh!!! Somebody laugh at me now. Yes, really! Believe me! My heart is for home and family.
I have a Volunteer Pharmacist working with me. Her name is Connie, and she should be in her 30's plus, with 3 children and a Korean husband. She has not been working for 9 years, since she married to Korea, she has been a wife and mother to her children. Now, she's here in Penang, she wants to update her knowledge and refresh up, so she's voluntering attached here to learn. Nice lady, she shared a lot with me, and guess what? She even planning to introduce her husband's cousin who's still single to me. She said..he's rich and looking for a wife outside of Korea. Gee...I really can't imagine that.
Life is good, and I've come to certain level: mid-life, to think what I really want in life. Am I wasting my life? Do I enjoying my life? Am I being purposeful? Ecclesiastes: Vanity, vanity, everything is vanity. . . To fear God and heed the Commandment is the life.
